Jenni's Jargon

the thoughts that run through my head

Be Positive…

I have been reflecting a lot since I turned the BIG 4-0 last month and I have decided that I need to be more positive. Now this has been very hard since we are in a very negative election season and CNN or MSNBC is on in our house a lot – my hubby is entrenched in the election and I have to let him have his passion. It seems everyday there are new allegations and dirt dug up on each candidate, and I have to wonder, does anyone talk about the issues that are important to our country anymore or is it all about who can sling more shit at the other person…that is marinating in my brain.

In all my reflection I found an article from the Huffington Post written in 2013 called 35 Affirmations That Will Change Your Life.  So I read the article with skeptical lenses. I have never been the biggest affirmation person. I have never had any problems giving others praise and affirmations but when it comes to myself, I am not my own best friend. I often have a hard time accepting compliments and affirmations from others as well. It’s not a confidence issues because most people who know me well will tell you that I am a very confident person, but I don’t always think my work or deeds need to be complimented or affirmed. Ok…back from ramble road…in reading this article I was trying to absorb all the affirmations that are listed on the page, and I had to giggle at some of them. I know that is not the point, but some just made me giggle. It made me feel like I was in the SNL skit from years ago, looking the mirror and saying “Gosh Darn it People Like You!”

Then I took off my skeptical lenses because I need to be positive!! Re-reading some of these I can see how they can help people believe in them selves and I can see how affirmations can help me in my life. I just need to find the ones that will fit in my life. I will be sure to share mine with you all when I do a follow up post. Stay Tuned…

loveYou all know from an earlier post that my new obsession is listening to Podcasts and another one that I have found that I love is called Love What Matters. I know many of you have seen the stories from this website on Facebook or you have seen the videos on their website but I will tell you that listening to the stories on the podcast has changed how I absorb the stories. Most of the podcasts are only about 15-20 min, so they are a very quick listen and they really recap the stories that they list on their website and Facebook page. They really make me smile and add a little light to my day. I really like them because I don’t have a lot of time in my day to watch videos or read stories (trying to make more time for that) but this is a great way to get the love from these stories in my life during my long commute to work.

smileI have always been the type of person who smiles at everyone when I make eye contact with them. I like to smile and see them smile back at me. I have recently been taking note on how many people I can make smile and often wonder why some people don’t smile back at me. I know that when I see someone smile it automatically makes me smile back at them no matter my mood. When I was recently working the concession stand at a Broncos game I was able to get everyone to smile back at me, even though they had been waiting to get their pizza a beer for quite a while as our line was long. By me simply smiling at the customer I was able to make them feel better about the long ass line they were just standing in to give me all their money for the food and drink they were ordering. The smile has a powerful effect on everyone’s mood!!

I’m hoping to make my world a little brighter by being positive and remembering to smile often. Please tell me how you are keeping your life positive!! Have a great weekend everyone!!


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The Heart of the Matter…

the-heart-of-the-matter-1-638So last week I had to take my mama to the hospital for a procedure. This was a procedure called a Right Heart Catheter, and it is basically used as a diagnostic procedure. This is the third time she has had this procedure and I’m going to be honest, I am scared each time. This seems to be a quite routine procedure for cardiologists but as all invasive procedures, there are risks. I am happy to report that my mom went through without any complications, as expected.

Now the results of this diagnostic test came out to be the same as the last two times she has had this. She has a high pressure from in her heart when pumping the blood to her lungs, one of the main reasons she has to wear oxygen all the time. When the doctor came to talk to us about this he was asking about her meds and then told her that she is totally maxed out on the meds and there is no other medication options. My heart sank. Then he began to tell us that he really likes my mom and really does not want to see this medical problem defeat her. I totally agree with him.

Just a little background, my mom (and myself) is a little heavy. We are not talking about the people who are on the TV having bariatric surgery by any stretch. Although that seems to be the first option that many doctors offer to patients these days and it has been offered to my mom in the past. My mom has had her fair share of surgeries and is not looking to have another at this time. Back on track…So this doctor was very kind and talked to us both about the reason he is telling my mom she needs to lose weight. The number one reason, this pressure in her heart will shut down her body if left untreated, and since the meds are maxed out, she really has to do this by losing weight. Now, I am not a small girl either and have struggled with a weight problem my whole adult life, so I really felt like this doctor was also speaking to me and saying this could be you in 22 years too. There are many, many ways I aspire to be like my mom, however, her medical conditions are not in that category.

So I think where I am going with this blog post is that my mama and I have a lot to think about and take action. We both have to lose weight because there is a little boy that will one day graduate from High School, College and beyond, he will get married, and have his own kids and both my mom and I want to be there to see all those things happen to my wonder boy! I will update our progress on here and let you all be a part of our journey.


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